What are you thinking at the moment?

rogonandi wrote:When I was a kid, my peers were mostly very cruel to me. They teased me, humiliated me, chased me home from school and stuff like that. My family was also hard on me growing up.

My peers and family are nice to me now. What changed? Why weren’t they compassionate with me back during my formative years when I needed it?

Because people are ridiculous and make no sense...

Not much to it, I think, aside from the above.

rogonandi wrote:

McTaggartfan wrote:

rogonandi wrote:When I was a kid, my peers were mostly very cruel to me. They teased me, humiliated me, chased me home from school and stuff like that. My family was also hard on me growing up.

My peers and family are nice to me now. What changed? Why weren’t they compassionate with me back during my formative years when I needed it?

Because people are ridiculous and make no sense...

Not much to it, I think, aside from the above.

I figured it was because I’m big enough to fight back now.

I feel like there's a sex joke I could throw in here somewhere. But I can't think of it just now

rogonandi wrote:Flirting is a lot of fun up to a point. If you don’t actually wanna have some fun, then stop wasting my time.

Edit: This doesn’t have anything to do with my last random thoughts.

Aren't you married, or am I thinking of someone else? If you are, then what "fun" would there be to be had?

Without my glasses I'm so, so ridiculously blind.

rogonandi wrote:

McTaggartfan wrote:

rogonandi wrote:Flirting is a lot of fun up to a point. If you don’t actually wanna have some fun, then stop wasting my time.

Edit: This doesn’t have anything to do with my last random thoughts.

Aren't you married, or am I thinking of someone else? If you are, then what "fun" would there be to be had?

No one was actually flirting with me (could you imagine? hah!) it was mostly a what if sort of deal.

I can imagine it, actually, but what would make me think less of you would be the hypothetical cheating.

I just finished watching the movie, Black Swan, and I've decided never to again watch a so-called "psychological thriller." It went on and on ad infinitum, and I saw nothing redeeming or interesting about it save that it had Natalie Portman. I'd rather have simply watched an actual performance of Swan Lake.

So many things are going on with my collegiate life lately, especially today and in relation to my professors. I haven't untangled my many feelings about it all yet; I'm not even sure of what, if anything, I should feel about it all. It's overwhelming.

rogonandi wrote:My husband did get me to eat today. I didn’t really want to as this depression has dulled my appetite.

That's good news! Also, I've the opposite problem. Eating too much and eating too little—both are, in a way, equally problematic.

My advisor, who is the professor with whom I did an independent study not too longer ago, is likely soon going to decide he doesn't think positively of me. I sent him an email disclosing how thoroughly displeased and disappointed I am, both in him and one of the professors with whom I'm currently taking a course, for not sharing with me (or the other students) just how much information and data is monitored, collected, and compiled for them (the professors) to see. I don't give a shit that Dr. Sozek knows I've crazy insomnia and sometimes feel an OCDish need to read and re-read old work I've submitted, to double-check for stupid mistakes or imperfections.

No, what I'm displeased over is the lack of their being forthcoming about how an online education, whether blended or not, can give them knowledge about my life, tendencies, or whatever else, that I didn't bother until now to consider they might possess. Moreover, because I wasn't informed at all about any of this, and because none of it was ever mentioned (much less detailed) anywhere for students, I could've been walking blindly into a situation I'd not have been comfortable with—yet they, who insist on using the platforms that not everyone's going to be familiar with, didn't deem it relevant to mention any of this stuff.

McTaggartfan wrote:No, what I'm displeased over is the lack of their being forthcoming about how an online education, whether blended or not, can give them knowledge about my life, tendencies, or whatever else, that I didn't bother until now to consider they might possess.

This is why I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with the Recently Active tab. I like snooping around but dislike when people can know how frequently I visit my Bieber thread.

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The homeless situation downtown has gotten worse. Like, I get that we messed up with institutionalization and all, but I don’t think the solution of just letting people roam free and live in their own filth is the way to go. It’s cruel and people have become numb to it all. I saw a lady there roaming the streets looking completely haggard, dejected and lost in her own thoughts. I thought, “That could be my mother.” But talking to anyone at work gives me the impression that that thought doesn’t come up too often with people.

poolerboy0077 wrote:

McTaggartfan wrote:No, what I'm displeased over is the lack of their being forthcoming about how an online education, whether blended or not, can give them knowledge about my life, tendencies, or whatever else, that I didn't bother until now to consider they might possess.

This is why I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with the Recently Active tab. I like snooping around but dislike when people can know how frequently I visit my Bieber thread.

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The homeless situation downtown has gotten worse. Like, I get that we messed up with institutionalization and all, but I don’t think the solution of just letting people roam free and live in their own filth is the way to go. It’s cruel and people have become numb to it all. I saw a lady there roaming the streets looking completely haggard, dejected and lost in her own thoughts. I thought, “That could be my mother.” But talking to anyone at work gives me the impression that that thought doesn’t come up too often with people.

Forgive the long quoting above, I'm too tired and have too much to do, to bother trying to make it shorter.

Yeah, I have considered how what I was talking about relates to the Recently Active tab. I pretty much only use it to quickly see who's online, rather than out of any care for what they're doing on the forum. I'm generally incredibly mindful of the privacy of other people, especially online. Even offline I'd still never in a million years, for instance, so much as contemplate reading someone's journal/diary when I know they're not around. But, to my great frustration, many others don't seem to think this way. The average person seems either not to care about it, or else not to understand the ethical importance of not doing these sorts of things—by which, broadly, I basically mean much of what's covered under the halachic notion of lashon hara.

Your Bieber thread?? I knew you'd a certain "affection," shall we say, for Bieber, but not that you'd a whole thread devoted to him! My goodness!

As for the homelessness part, I'll say this. People are abysmally cruel and tend to be principally interested only in the well-being of themselves, their friends, and their relatives. It's despicable, disgusting, and morally reprehensible. But that's just how most people are, and when it's brought up they don't seem to care. Most Americans in fact think themselves to be good people, while yet a significant minority (some 40+ percent) admit they don't try their best to better themselves as moral individuals. I've mostly given up on trying to educate and inspire people to improve from a standpoint of character and morality; they either fail to see the relevance of ethics, reasoning, and actually deep thought to everyday life, or else they think it's not worth the exhausting trouble of continually trying to become better. So, in short, I'm hardly surprised by what you've said. At the same time, however, I'm admittedly a bit surprised to find how you, in seeing the homeless person, actually cared; it's commendable and I respect you for it.

Severelius wrote:Currently debating myself back and forth on the idea of booking tickets to go and see an opera live in London at some point in the future.

I mean, if you’re doing opera, surely you’ve got to go to Glyndebourne? Surely?

Marmaduke wrote:

Severelius wrote:Currently debating myself back and forth on the idea of booking tickets to go and see an opera live in London at some point in the future.

I mean, if you’re doing opera, surely you’ve got to go to Glyndebourne? Surely?

Are you always simply lurking about? Not that I mind, and surely I suppose I can't complain myself on this matter.