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When can you consider yourself "out"

Unread postby mxguy01 » 4 September 2019, 04:03

Funny (not), here I am older, divorced, in a more accepting time, in a more accepting place, no real consequences can happen for the most part, and yet I still feel like a) I'm not really "out" and b) I'm still afraid to be so at times.

Why say something about it now: The other day the owner of the two mx tracks I go to the most made a post on Instagram. He bought a new UTV that he rides around in at the track while working, like brand new, which I guess he's never done before. During the race this weekend at his track, dirt blowing around, someone drew/wrote something on it. In the post, being pissed referred to whoever as a "faggot". Today he posted that someone reported him, unfriended him. He did say it was only because he was pissed. But also said about how they should have a civil war statue removed or something else stupid. While his original post was taken down by Instagram I assume, the second one has 182 likes and includes a couple people who I talk a bit while at the one track.

Now from those posts I can't really assume he's actually homophobic. Actually he's seems like a decent person in general but there's also a bit that worries me thinking, but unsure, he is a bit prejudiced.

Some may think amusingly about this because this is me and motocross but change the story a bit. Like swimming, basketball, baseball, whatever thing your really into as a hobby, sport, pastime that keeps you from loosing your shit because that's really what it is for me.

So have I really changed from that scared teen of many years ago, who took the path through life because he felt he had no safe alternative. Here I sit bitter, angry, sad that all this time, the pushing myself along to make the changes in myself that needed to change - and I can still be made to feel that way.

I did think about replying and saying "Hey I'm gay. Can I feel welcome at your track or should I just stay away". But I lack the courage at the moment. Someday I need to find the courage to face that one.
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Re: When can you consider yourself "out"

Unread postby NvM » 4 September 2019, 11:24

seems we all cant love all of god's creatures.
who do YOU hate?
i mean it is trump america.

my take is
any one that has every day contact with people, you have to put your personal junk in a box and not let it influence business.

i guess do what you want, it really dosnt matter. But get a boy friend or husband and you have to be out.
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Re: When can you consider yourself "out"

Unread postby poolerboy0077 » 4 September 2019, 11:53

I for one am absolutely shocked that a progressive, refined sport like mud cycling attracts boorish persons with such retrograde views.
Blow: "Nowadays even Liam can release an album of his screechy vocals and it'll probably go #1..."
Ramzus: I can admit that I'm horny just about 24/7
homomorphism: I used to not think your name was deshay and that Erick was just being racist
Hunter: sometimes I think I was literally born to be a pornstar
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Re: When can you consider yourself "out"

Unread postby NvM » 4 September 2019, 13:33

poolerboy0077 wrote:I for one am absolutely shocked that a progressive, refined sport like mud cycling attracts boorish persons with such retrograde views.
I was sad to sell off my motorcycles. It totally rulled my live in a good way for a long time and i dont have retrograde views! Instead they are MY views. Its not news to everyone here we all have our belief systems. Like ^ss_holes, the lucky boy has one.
4example:
peeps apply mud to their faces and call it makeup.
Its really really all good.

i dont know whats going on sorry but had to be talked about here.


what i meant to say:
with the single digit 5% gay population it helps to sorta make your self a tiny itsy-bit or more out . Myabe not but might get a date??
Last year we were sitting in at a local drag show. This was not my usual hang out. For one I dont drink (for my good reason). Next morning I was at homeDepot buying drywall and a huge handsome very young man came up to me to thank me for attending the show.
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Re: When can you consider yourself "out"

Unread postby Yeauxleaux » 6 September 2019, 17:44

I feel like the word "faggot" has become oddly detatched from gay men and I look at it as more akin to calling someone a "pussy" these days.

Anyway in answer to the question, I say when anyone "important" in your life knows, namely family members and good friends. When you've done that, you're not consistently hiding it from anyone close to you and you are truly living authentically most of the time with people you know.
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Re: When can you consider yourself "out"

Unread postby rogonandi » 7 September 2019, 08:04

You’re considered ‘out’ when anyone can ask you if you’re gay and you say yes.
People love to follow fools; they don't feel so alone then.

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