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Unread postby dazedbutnotconfused » 17 August 2021, 04:56

So I am a straight middle aged male, happily married for 23 years.

I have watched porn for many years of my life. It was always the same old same old. after a while I started noticing that I was no longer watching it for the women, or the normal activities, it had changed. I began really only doing searches for anal porn, cumshot porn, which eventually turned into transexual porn. Then it got to where I only was interested in cocks, and the cumshot. It seems to be the only thing that turns me on for the past couple years.

I do not find men attractive in a sexual way, but my thoughts are always on cum and sucking some faceless guy off. I have had fantasies about being the bottom to a dominate male, and being his sex toy.

so the question I have is this, Do you think I have some underlying homosexual desires? am I bi? I feel like I can't be because I am not desiring any kind of relationship outside of one of the kink. I am confused on why I am having all these sexual desires that deal with me being submissive, aroused by ejaculation, and fellatio.

any advice, insight, or help would be appreciated.

I have even considered finding a willing male that I would want to do these things with, just to see if it is fantasy or what is really inside me trying to get out. I haven't been able to bring myself to that point, but the desire is becoming stronger and stronger.
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Re: confused need advice

Unread postby pozzie » 17 August 2021, 08:23

Men who have sex with men (MSM) but don't identify as gay, bi, queer, etc is nothing new, if nothing else, you might be MSM-curious. Not sure that any of the labels matter. Other than that, whatever this might mean is up to you to decide. Yeah, if you find a willing partner, give it go but keep in mind that first times always tend towards the awkward. I hated sushi the first time I tried it. Some years latter I started to dabble and then moved to Japan. Get my meaning?

You might want to brush up on safer sex info and if you're not familiar with BDSM/kink etiquette, that would be good to figure out as well. Not everyone who might accept your kind invitation will have any interest in being kind in return: so if you don't know how to negotiate a scene, probably best not to go there unless you have a lot of trust in your partner and that's not really a given if you have no other 'relationship' outside the kink.
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