Do I have a sex addiction?

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Do I have a sex addiction?

Unread postby Tim_Iddboy » 29 October 2022, 13:31

Hi, I'm new here. I'm a closeted gay guy (age 18) in South Korea. I've already written my self-introduction on this forum, so if you're curious about me, please look for it.

I've known I am gay for a long time now. I have never been sexually attracted to women. In my poor attempts to make myself 'straight,' I had tried watching straight porn, but it only made me drool at the naked male actors.

The homophobia in my country will never allow me to come out of the closet. My friends make jokes about 'faggots,' and my parents say they hate gay people. So, there is little chance of me living my life in this country. It is either immigration or an unhappy marriage with a unsuspecting lady.

My introverted nature, and strict upbringing doesn't help me in the gay dating scene as well. I have never dated anyone yet - all of my 'relationships' are purely online, and sexual. What I am most shameful about is that I tend to be more attracted to older men, and I admit having had chats with them despite being underage. I am 18 now, horny as ever, and I find myself hitting the cam sex sites whenever I am alone at home. I get off there. It feels great, but I actually feel a little depressed after the cam sessions.

I feel worried I will turn into a 40-year-old virgin, and a pervert. I know I can start meeting up real guys in university, but the idea freaks me out (but excites me as well).

Also, what do you think of my attraction to middle-aged men? It is not that I am solely attracted to them (younger guys can be attractive, of course), but I would say I have a thing for older men. This was in fact one of the factors that made me consider 'converting' myself to straight - because I thought it was very abnormal and twisted.
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Re: Do I have a sex addiction?

Unread postby Rambunctious05 » 29 October 2022, 15:08

Sounds to me like you are a normal 18 year old guy. Don’t be hard on yourself. You have time ahead of you to learn more about yourself and look for the type of man you are attracted to. The main thing to remember is that you are responsible for your own thoughts and actions. As you mature, you will gain confidence in yourself and in your ability. Some days are up, some days are down, but always keep looking forward. Because each day really is a new day. Best of life for you!
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