I think I am gay .

I am really sexually confused . When I was 8-9 when I had sleep overs with my friends we would suck each other’s ducks from time to time . We called it practicing . Fast forward to a few years ago . I had a girl friend when I was 30 . We want to the beach , after dating for a few years . She wanted to have sex , she even got me drunk to try . Each time. I said no that it did not feel correct . A few weeks later we broke up . Fast forward , I have been with several guys but we have never actually had intercourses . I have been with a guy for about a year . He has reserved an up scale hotel . He told me the other night I think it’s time . I have sucked his cock a few times . I know he wants it with no condom . The question is when is it time to admit I am gay and allow him in .

Do it you have been sucking cock since you were 8-9yrs old but have not understood you are gay?
Go give yourself to him and enjoy the experience and enjoy yourself