On being bi

Sometimes I'm more focused on women but sometimes I start fantasizing about men, I start cruising on apps for guys to talk to but finding one that I like is hard.

I resist against it a lot. I've always fantasized about guys tho.

I went to a guy sauna once a number of years ago but just stayed in the room alone looking at porn.

I've built it up so much in my mind.

I started seeing this girl recently so part of me wants to try sucking dick before things go anywhere. I wish I could ignore it but it's kinda hard to ignore the raging hardon when I think about sucking cock lol.

poppy wrote:Sometimes I'm more focused on women but sometimes I start fantasizing about men, I start cruising on apps for guys to talk to but finding one that I like is hard.

I resist against it a lot. I've always fantasized about guys tho.

I went to a guy sauna once a number of years ago but just stayed in the room alone looking at porn.

I've built it up so much in my mind.

I started seeing this girl recently so part of me wants to try sucking dick before things go anywhere. I wish I could ignore it but it's kinda hard to ignore the raging hardon when I think about sucking cock lol.

Why resist it? Just embrace the desire and, perhaps, when you're not so focused on resisting it all the time, it won't come up as much.

In any case, the subject of the thread makes this sound like it's going to be a fun 18th century-style treatise on being bisexual.

I don't know, I've always dated women and now the more I think about dating men the more I think about being more out I worry about how people will perceive me I guess?

I'd like to get married one day but I worry about this nagging fantasy I have. Is it just a fantasy? Do I really want to suck a guy off and get fucked just to see what it's like?

In my fantasies I definitely lean more toward the bottom scale, sucking cock and recently of getting fucked, facials, swallowing.

It's hard to find a guy to talk about it with.

I always look for younger guys but maybe I should look for someone older.

I've talked to a couple twinky dudes but didn't like that they had small dicks.

I worry about doing too much at once. Like having a three way and getting fucked ad letting them cum all over my face. It's like I tell myself I'm just trying it once so I should just go for it. But what if I love cock?

Fuck lol why does that turn me on so much? Am I just lying to myself about wanting to be with women?

I would miss women if I was gay, I feel bad that I want to have a girlfriend but also want to have sex with men.

Maybe if I did it I wouldn't think about it so much?

Think I found a cute guy nearby. I hope I like it. I'm expecting to like it.

It was hard for me to admit I want to suck cock. I feel pretty gay now.

If this dude picks me up I'm gonna let him fuck me.

I'm pretty excited to give a blowjob.

What's the best position for a newbie?

Im thinking about just going to steamworks and hanging out.

I hear you I don't even identify as bi I'm not attracted to guys I like girls but every now and then I get the urge to suck a cock so l do that's all I want though just a quick anonymous suck don't care what you look like don't want to know your names as long as you're clean just let me suck it off and I'll be done and on my way Don't know why just had a penis fixation long as I can remember

It's interesting how things change as I talk about it with people. Like when it's something I'm trying to ignore when I'm trying(unsuccessfully) to hook up I'm pretty forward and am like I'm new and want to try it let's fuck.

It's not working, I'm now just asking to hang out and smoke weed.